Cinquain-Thursday [9]

Standing

Watching you look

At that sunset, amazed

A look of awe shines on your face

Beauty  

Sometimes I feel my trials are so small compared to yours...

Because of a certain post, on a certain persons blog I felt the desire to join The High Calling blogs. After joining and reading through the posts of hundreds of people who had dedicated their lives to God and took time to share their experiences I felt almost like I was so.....childish. I felt that the trials and troubles I had posted previously where so insignificant compared to some of the stories I read about. [Example: a seventeen year old boy suddenly being confronted with the death of his father.]
As I read through others I also saw lives filled with joy and happiness, lives blessed by the hand of God.


Being only sixteen I have been through more than people would ever guess looking at me. The scar on my finger from the surgery to remove a bone tumor is barely noticeable, you can't see the curve in my spine from the scoliosis. You can't see the healed mental and emotional scars I have gained over the years. When I tally these up and compare them to the stories of these other people I feel pathetic for ever thinking I had been through such hard experiences.


But then I had to remind myself that not everyone will be tested the same way, not everyone is going to go through the exact same tragedy or sorrow. I don't know the exact reason God put me through the things he did, but I do know it has made me stronger. And I can imagine that the others who have gone through things less severe, or more tragic have emerged stronger as well, more grounded in their Faith. I know I have, the things I went through have made my Faith in Christ grow. These things happened to me all in the years leading up to my Salvation, why didn't they happen after I had been saved? Why did God decide to let them happen when I was still a wicked, unsaved sinner? I don't have an answer, God works in mysterious ways.


Thinking again of the HCB, I think I will be back again tomorrow to read more of the lives of Christ's children, because today I found hope, faith, courage and strength. What will I find tomorrow?


My Faith looks up to thee, Oh Lamb of Calvary, may thy rich Grace impart, strength to my fainting heart.

Cinquain-Thursday [8]

Warm wind
Summer weather


Around us denizens


Walking under July's hot sun
Pool fun

Renewing old bonds

As we walked and talked, what where you thinking?

Close family friends unseen for many years, caused by a great distance between us, where finally reunited with us for a day. Smiles, hugs, joyful hellos all around. A mothers best friend for so many years finally seen again can cause one of the most happy smiles her daughter has ever seen come from her mother. it makes her feel happy and joyful for the opportunity. 




Contact via the internet can acquaint one with someone only so far, seeing them in person is a something entirely different. But an immediate hug can shatter your slightly nervous waiting-on-the-outskirts entirely :)
ten minutes of hugs and greetings and finally everyone gets inside, but that is simply a different environment for the talking and laughing to continue in.


After awhile tired and weary people drift off to bed, sleep is welcome. The next day more catching up and laughing, a morning walk with a new friend through the neighborhood. [my first without male company]
Finding much common ground and talking of our Salvation and the ways the Lord has worked in our lives, the morning went by in a flash of enjoyment and pleasure.
Thoughts drifted through my head, what does she think of me? Do I seem strange and unusual? Does she find me pleasurable company?


Not quite wanting to, we drift back home, crowded house full of chattering people.
The noise is that of happiness and biblical talking points, varying levels of voice pitch float through the house. Two of us find some quiet escape in ear budded music and email catching up :)


After the day has ended and everyone has quieted down a friend and I settle down for the journal/diary entry of the day. Contentedly listening to the strumming of the [very talented] guitar player. A smile raises to my lips, relishing and storing away the moment, having not experienced anything like it before.


It amazes me how after so many years the bond between two families can be renewed and strengthened as though not a single minute had passed. Parents joking and laughing about things in times past that remain wonderful memories and times of fellowship. I praise God for the opportunity I had to meet them all again [and a new one :] I was blessed with a day of memories, and I pray that we will all meet again in the future.


The bond of a friend and sister in Christ will last forever, unbreakable.

Cinquain-Thursday [7]

Birdy




Flying on by


Covered in black feathers




Shiny and sleek, pointy beak face


Cawing






I am posting this early because I am uber busy this week, got a puppet show to practice doncha know ;)

On Life, Ideas, Happiness and God's Blessings

AAHH!!! I am feeling a need to write!! But alas....I cannot think of anything to write about!! Isn't that just terrible!! A writer who does not know what to write!! [I think I broke a record for the most 'write(s) in one sentence]


My novel is coming along wonderfully, but I am taking a break to let my brain process some new ideas for the next few chapters. Right now I have so many written projects half finished, I'm not one to leave them hanging for long. But I have always, in everything I write, had moments where I simply can't keep going. I have to know that what I write will be good, or at least entertaining, before I can put it down on paper. [One of the very few things I am a perfectionist in]


My creative juices have been sucked dry in the last two months, four chapters for my novel sprang out of nowhere in a span of a week, and writing short stories for my little sister titled the Spy Chronicles of Maxine Goldman and Samantha Field. [She greatly enjoys me reading them to her, so I am trying to finish #4]


:) lately I have been feeling the desire to run out in a field of flowers and spin under the sun, laughing and jumping around like a little girl with my little sister. No matter how old I am or how mature I have grown, I will always have a bit of a child in me. The little kids always have so much fun!! Carefree and giggly, always seeing the good in people, they are such a joy :)


And look here, I guess I did have something to write about :) 
My writing or writing style may seem strange to you . But I guess writing is one thing I'm good at, and I can't help but share it.. And what I love almost as much as writing....is hearing what everyone else has to say. My comments are few from others, but anything you may want to say, maybe not even about the post, I love and welcome them!!!


God is so wonderful to me, His constant care and love has gotten me through so much. Life is such a joy, and family is such a blessing. Thank you Savior for all you have blessed this undeserving child of yours with.


Life is a gift, cherish it while you have it :)

On New Horizons

Well, for years I wondered what it would be like to drive. Would it be scary? Nerve racking? Tense and nervous?

Well I found it was none if those things, if even the exact opposite!

My first drivers lesson was Tuesday, and my driving instructor the same man who did it for my older brother.

He rolled up in an old '98 Jaguar, shiny wine red, and a real treat to drive around for two hours [knowing my love for old cars]

Backing out of the driveway, a breeze, getting out onto the road, piece of cake, keeping up with traffic, easy peasy.

Firstly we drove through town out to a small almost nonexistent town called Bangor, about twenty to twenty-five minutes out of town. Then we stopped for a firetruck to pass, then turned back toward Oroville, from there we drove out to another very small town called Palermo. We had now been out about an hour, the sun was beating down through the windows we had open [seeing as how his air conditioner had broken down ten minutes before he got to our home] and I was cruising along at a good speed. After this we went up to the outskirts of town around the Thermolito after-bay, I was thoroughly enjoying myself. 

A difficult aspect of driving that old Jag was the gas pedal spring was very tough, and I had to push really hard to get it to 'go'.

After two hours of driving around and doing as he said 'very good' we finally got back home. He left telling me to set up my next lesson, and when I got inside I was having difficulty containing my exuberance.

Suppressing a squeal I told mom I had done great, it was so easy!!

For almost five months I had been preparing myself for being able to drive, I never have been one to be scared of much, so I hadn't really expected to be scared when I did my lesson.

For almost five months I had been internally preparing myself, and I think I was ready for it since the day I became saved. There was much to fear when your driving, a lot that I had to realize was dangerous. But I wasn't afraid, everything is preordained, I was in my Creators hands, come what may I was prepared for it.

And I will continue being prepared for anything that may come my way, but right now I have shopping to do!!

And I am driving home :)

Cinquain-Thursday [6]

Nighttime

Shadows moving

Wind whistles through the trees

I'm shaking, what lurks in the dark?

Then.......BOO!!!

Cinquain-Thursday [5]

Couple


standing close by


holding hands, rubs her arm


looking in his eyes, she smiles


kiss her

Simply.....Happy

I just feel the need to share my joy and peace right now. I have never been one (for years) to feel completely at peace, or so very happy. But in the last few months (Mostly because I have the Holy Spirit dwelling in me) I have been utterly...... ecstatic, in spirit and mind. Happy with life, joyful in family, peace in the Word, smiles and laughter with a pretty cool little sister. I am sure I am not the only one who has times like these :)


Praise God from whom all blessings flow

Catching Up

Well, I have been absent for over two weeks now....life seems to get in the way of my 'to-do' list quite often :)
This particular post is more of a Journal entry tonight, it is the fourth of July and I have just come back inside after watching the fireworks from our driveway. For most, the fourth of July reminds them of the day we gained independence, but for me, I am reminded of all the men and women out there at this very moment  keeping that independence for us.
Two weeks ago I went up to Oregon with my Grandma and Mom to help my aunt deal with the things that needed to be done after my great grandma past away. It was hard seeing them grieve. The week was more emotional stress than anything else.
And last week my best friend was over for the week, and having us two together...........nothing ever gets done.
Nothing but movie watching, candy eating and trips to our 7-11 :)


I also seem to have neglected putting up last weeks Cinquain, I'll have to remember on Thursday and post two of them :)


Right now I feel slightly nervous, my first driving lesson is tomorrow morning, and it is the first time I will really be taught how to drive. Man from the DMV and unfamiliar car and all.
Prayer and some deep breaths and I'll be fine, I'm a good driver, it's only the nerves that will get to me.
Life has been so amazing the last couple months, the feeling of love and contentment is wonderful. I have never had this particular mix of emotions before.......I love it :) 


Have a wonderful night and God bless :)