Define Me

The joy I have felt
The peace I have found
The hurt I have overcome
The trials I have been through
The obstacles I have removed
The happiness I enjoy
The family I hold so dear
The friends I forever cherish

The comfort I have experienced
The eased suffering
The heartache and the loss
The love lost and gained
The winning and the losing
The hurt caused by the tongue
The swallowed pride and apologies
The grudge and the forgiveness

The tough days and harder years
The realizations and the acceptance
The surprises and the laughs
The new and the old
The broken and renewed dreams
The lost and gained again hope
The failure and the success

The life of a sinner
Saved by His Grace
Not of myself
It was the gift of God
These are the moments, the emotions
The trials and the errors
The crossed mountains and seas
And the hurls and the ditches
That defined who I was
Define who I am
And who I will become





*I am defined by the Creator of all
The Potter of the clay

The Mercy and Grace of the Lord

Yesterday was an eventful day, firstly, my family and I went along with our home school group to a place called Woodleaf. An amazing and beautiful place, a large lake, large pool, slides, a swing that rises 100 ft. in the air an swings you out over the lake, and many other amazing characteristics. My best friend and I enjoyed the game room mainly, which was open to us this time. Pool tables, Foosball, and Ping-Pong, pool being the one we enjoyed the most.

After spending almost the entire day talking, laughing, and having an amazing time of 'togetherness', it was time for us to leave. It was about 4:15 in the afternoon when we left, but then, when we were about twenty minutes from home, we noticed our Gramma gesturing wildly at us through her windshield to pull over. And the moment we did, smoke began to billow out from under where our wheels were. Our brakes, apparently, had burned out.
Everyone scrambled out of the car and grabbed their things, the smell of burning brakes permeated the car, everyone, [my family minus one,  my little sis' best friend and Gramma] crowded around our smoking van and stared in amazement.
After a few minutes we decided that it was probably not wise to continue driving, so mom called dad [the blessings of a dad working in equipment rentals] and dad said he would bring out a car dolly, be he couldn't be there until the store closed. [at 5:00]
So we all sat on the side of the road for forty-five minutes patiently waiting for dad to come get us.
[It was a small blessing to see that at least some of the people who drove by and saw our predicament, bothered to stop and ask if we were ok]
After awhile of sitting and talking, my gramma and mom mentioned how it was such a blessing that gramma noticed something was wrong. The Lord kept us save that day, or we, in all probability, would have flown through the stop sign with no brakes and gotten in an accident. I was slightly disappointed at this turn of events, because it meant my breakfast with dad the next morning would be ruined.
But also, as a side though, thank the Lord it was a cool afternoon, because it was pleasant enough sitting on the side of the road waiting for dad to come rescue us.
Dad finally arrived with the car dolly, he hitched the van up and we were able to get home in one piece.

And so this morning, dad had to pull the van up to Chico and get it to Midas, which took a significant amount of time longer, because we missed our turn three times.... .....
We finally got it there, and then dad and I went back to our town and had the breakfast we had been planning for for three weeks, though it was really a brunch ;)
We then left for his work to put the car dolly back, and hitch up the log-splitter, which we towed home to cut all the logs we had so we can have our fireplace going this winter.
After getting it home and unhooked we all drove down to our 7-11 to get slurpees, then we got home again and split about forty logs.

All in all this was an eventful weekend, we were able to enjoy a wonderful day, [weather and fun wise]  and we were again shown the mercy and sovereignty of God.
The Lord kept us safe in a potentially very dangerous situation, and I got my breakfast with dad after all =)

Not quite so Cinquain-Thursday

We all were happy when
She said she was coming
to visit

We waited in anticipation
For her to walk through
the door

She enters and we run to her
to endow her with hugs
and kisses

She slept in my room under my blanket
And when she leaves I find that my blanket
smells like Gramma 

Renewing old bonds

As we walked and talked, what where you thinking?

Close family friends unseen for many years, caused by a great distance between us, where finally reunited with us for a day. Smiles, hugs, joyful hellos all around. A mothers best friend for so many years finally seen again can cause one of the most happy smiles her daughter has ever seen come from her mother. it makes her feel happy and joyful for the opportunity. 




Contact via the internet can acquaint one with someone only so far, seeing them in person is a something entirely different. But an immediate hug can shatter your slightly nervous waiting-on-the-outskirts entirely :)
ten minutes of hugs and greetings and finally everyone gets inside, but that is simply a different environment for the talking and laughing to continue in.


After awhile tired and weary people drift off to bed, sleep is welcome. The next day more catching up and laughing, a morning walk with a new friend through the neighborhood. [my first without male company]
Finding much common ground and talking of our Salvation and the ways the Lord has worked in our lives, the morning went by in a flash of enjoyment and pleasure.
Thoughts drifted through my head, what does she think of me? Do I seem strange and unusual? Does she find me pleasurable company?


Not quite wanting to, we drift back home, crowded house full of chattering people.
The noise is that of happiness and biblical talking points, varying levels of voice pitch float through the house. Two of us find some quiet escape in ear budded music and email catching up :)


After the day has ended and everyone has quieted down a friend and I settle down for the journal/diary entry of the day. Contentedly listening to the strumming of the [very talented] guitar player. A smile raises to my lips, relishing and storing away the moment, having not experienced anything like it before.


It amazes me how after so many years the bond between two families can be renewed and strengthened as though not a single minute had passed. Parents joking and laughing about things in times past that remain wonderful memories and times of fellowship. I praise God for the opportunity I had to meet them all again [and a new one :] I was blessed with a day of memories, and I pray that we will all meet again in the future.


The bond of a friend and sister in Christ will last forever, unbreakable.

Simply.....Happy

I just feel the need to share my joy and peace right now. I have never been one (for years) to feel completely at peace, or so very happy. But in the last few months (Mostly because I have the Holy Spirit dwelling in me) I have been utterly...... ecstatic, in spirit and mind. Happy with life, joyful in family, peace in the Word, smiles and laughter with a pretty cool little sister. I am sure I am not the only one who has times like these :)


Praise God from whom all blessings flow